Movies like Juno.

I really have no valid reasoning behind my complaining and for what I'm complaining.

While I do realize and accept that I'm in the middle class, I have parents who love eachother and me, who care about me, a supportive (besides my dad's greedy side) family, and I'm generally healthy and barely ever get sick, I have mediocre but acceptable grades, I have friends, all of that. I'm fortunate. But dammit do I hate comparing myself to others less fortunate. Like when people use the excuse 'WELL THE KIDS IN AFRICA,' honest, I don't care at all. It's a shit thing to pull, too. Why does the situation of another which has no direct ties to me affect me? We are all born differently into different cultures with different norms and social positions. I don't care if there are starving kids in Africa because 'God' would not have that, but since he's apparently real, he does like having starving, diseased people around the world who were born no deserving of their contemporary condition.

Going off on a tangent, I want to stop before I get even worse and more offensive.

Another thing. Offensive. 'This offends me, you offend me, I'm offended, they're offensive, I'm not offensive,' shutup. People are soo sensitive. There's nothing wrong with being offensive nor should I know if you were offended because before it came out of my mouth, I know you would have been offended and I meant it to be and for you to be offended.

Ok. Having made you guys hate me more, I'm sad and lonely and sad and it's that little period when I don't talk as much (or, I hope I don't talk a lot in general) to people and where I'm neutral and moody and sulky. Having read everything at the beginning of this post, it was intentionally meant (not) to make you not feel as bad for me, but have a slight taste of hate on your tongue. Or I don't know where I'm going with this. I can't want to have a relationship but hold such high standards, especially for someone like me. But I don't mind waiting even though I will complain and be moody in the waiting period. I mean. I waited for Cassidy to come along, and pre-'I don't want to get too attached' was great. I mean (2x), the conversations we had, and the, of course, physical companionship we had was great, really great. But. Fuck it, because as Sean Bonnette would say in this situation, 'love will fuck us up.' Or Thom Yorke and his 'I don't want to be your friend, I just want to be your lover,' up in this bitch.

I also do not read over my posts so grammatical errors are expected.