Amnesiac.

Why. Do I feel sadness and regret? Why. I did nothing.

I regret everything I've done, and everything I haven't done.

Like, I had a good time there, I talked to friends, got to know Carlo a little more, had a good time with Jessy, but now I feel horrible. WHY. It'll never work out. My mind is soo full of fuck right now, like, I can't even focus on what I'm thinking. Then again when you think about it, there's nothing to be happy about. I think I'm having an emotional breakdown..

I think I may know why. If it's never gonna happen, why bother? Am I not good enough? Then again, thats a rhetorical question. It's like I'm wasting my emotions on something that's complete bullshit, well, maybe that's a little harsh but, something that'll never happen, so, why waste myself over it? I feel like I'm trying too hard, it's just not me, if it happens joy, if it doesn't, don't pursue it, the answer has already been given. I need to go back to my normal self. This should stay as a lesson to why I shouldn't fuck around anymore, it's too much of an emotional hassle..

On anther note, my blog is too depressing.

That is all.