When Will You Come?

I'm teetering on the borderline of dropping it all off the edge immaturely and actually trying for this last year of high-school. People are annoying me much more than a person should normally annoy someone. No one likes anything I like, no one walks with me in the halls, no one anything.

I love the friends I have right now in the Senior class, even though I feel like the time we're spending together is sharply cut down to a minuscule size compared to last year, so, every class I have with amazing people (AP US Government, and one person: Shannon), is amazing, but every other class I have to sit through, is mental hell. Now Catie, don't take this the wrong way, but I love you, and I hope you know I do, but English.. I can't do that class happily, as much as I love Mr. Howard, I have no primary friends that talk to me, so I sit in the back and make gay jokes with Danny and Chris, but it's not sitting next to Tyler, Shannon, Lindsey, Justin, etc. And I feel like the Reed sisters hate me because of the breakup with Logan, and I'm pretty sure Danielle is enough of a bitch to hold that for such a long time.

Aside from that, Logan told me today that Tyler was talking to her and he mentioned me with some negative connotations, specifically that feels bad for me because I sit at home all day and that I'm lonely. Thanks, Tyler. I'm making the educated decision to not say anything about it to him, nor act differently or hurt towards him, because sadly, I'd be dead without him. I've never said anything bad about him, ever, and that I swear on my mother's and father's grave. Yet, people apparently don't hold values to the same truth and respect I do, thus, I lose a little more faith in humanity.

Sociology; group projects and of course, I know no-one. After some careful persuasion although, I'm writing about 4 pages on hippies by myself. A lot of work for a shit class but loneliness and hatred for people comes with a price.

I like photography. And I feel bad that I'm saying that because I've never taken a class on it or anything nor that I want to labeled as a faggot hipster about it all, but it makes me happy, so, why the fuck not? I enjoy playing around with the ISO and aperture and getting that perfect picture of anything really, even if it's a fucking leaf. I'd like to get the thrift store Pentax working, but it might take a little while, regardless, I foresee a future of low grain film with that camera, and working on getting the ISO and aperture right on it without the digital aspect of a DSLR.

Aside from that; videogames.

This has been a post and sorry that it's been a while.